Torn to pieces-- Speechless.

How to start all over again. How do you know when to stop. How do you get up and move forward. When will you know that it's just over?
Silence. I want to scream but I seemed to be mute, I want to see the but I'm blind, I want to touch yet I have no hands to touch with. As much as I want to walk away, my feet seemed to be stable and I just can't move. I don't know how to begin this. After 3 years and 5 months of love, tears, laughter and pure nothingness, everything ends, in a blink of an eye. Everything fades, just gone. Moving forward. Who says it's going to be easy in the first place? It's about crying and venting it all out, forgetting the pain and keeping the happy and good memories as you go on. Sounds so damn easy, hope it was as easy like the break-up. A 30 minute text that ended everything that you tried to fight for, treasured and kept while the process of moving on takes weeks, months and worse, years. But nonetheless, as you go on and take the journey alone, you become stronger, wiser and better. Cause somewhere inside of you, you know that the wounds will heal, everything will pass and you'll learn how to go on and face everything on your own.

But for now, I'll leave my heart wounded. It will learn to beat on it's own, someday. I'm taking my chance of survival not knowing how long it will take. Accompanied by tears, fake smiles and a torn heart..To the happy memories and unchanging love, I will get by.